I have been sitting on this domain for a few years and I have been going back and forth between this one and another. I figured that since I have been using the other for some time and recently a colossal change has happened in my life that was caused by a massive change in myself, that perhaps it was time I changed a few other things. There are a lot of things I have been wanting to do with a blog and it has been difficult for me to decide whether I want to pursue this only for the purposes of my live streaming or if I wanted to add posts about my life and my progress as I learn to become who it is I want to be. Either way, I think it is safe to use my first post to explain who I am.
My name is Steve. I’m approaching my mid-thirties and I have been going through a few years of personal therapy. That may be too much information for some people, but I feel it’s an important part of the journey to know that. I have two children and I am married but going through a divorce. The children are not from the same woman that I married, however. Over the last few years I have had a problem with being socially aggressive. My adult life has mostly been a strain of me arguing with people and having conflicts that, in hindsight, I oftentimes wish had not occurred. These often came out of a flaw of myself, an inability to be up front about the truth of my desires because of a lack of personal value. It led to behaviors that were perceived and may even have been manipulative, which in and of themselves would create conflicts when I felt that people were doing what I wanted against their will. Essentially I created compounded messes.
I’m not the same person I was, but I’m not entirely yet the person I want to be. Over the course of the future I will move towards my desires and to accomplish my goals. I will learn to be content with my life but always willing to improve it. I am a better person than the man I was and every day I will only improve.
This blog will contain a mixture of things, some stuff about Magic: the Gathering, some stuff about my past, and some stuff about my progress. My goal is 2-3 posts per week. I’m not always the best at producing written content on time or sometimes even at all, but that will not be for a lack of trying. I hope you enjoy the content that is to come and I hope sometimes you’ll join me for some M:TG live streams to talk and hang out with us.
Thank you for your time and best of life in your future.